Listen to me read this essay:
Hi friends
The latest Andre 3000 album is growing on me. And giving very new moon in Pisces vibes (it is called New Blue Sun). Iβm listening to it sitting by the window on my sofa. Incense and Camphill candles fill the air with the scents of frankincense and beeswax. Though grey skies cloak the city, I still peek lower Manhattan in the distance. Birds sing here in Brooklyn.
How are things where you are?
When I started a newsletter ten years ago, I called it make space. Thank you for making space to read my moonly missives. I appreciate that you show up for these astrologically timed emails. As you probably know, each Ancestors to Elements is connected to a lunar phase (see subtitle above). You may not know that each post reaches your inbox when the moon phase is exact. To the minute. Youβre welcome.
Astronomically, a new moon is considered the first phase and occurs when the Moon is between Earth and the Sun. The side of the Moon in shadow faces us, thus, we canβt see it. In approximately two weeks, the Moon will appear fully illuminated because Earth will be located between the Sun and the Moon. From today, the Moon will orbit us counterclockwise, waxing in visibility to fullness and then waning to newness again β a cycle of approximately one month/moon (same root). Astrologically, this is why new moons are considered times for beginnings, for setting intentions that manifest with the full moon as we witness this dance of developing and dispersing.
I say astronomically and astrologically as if they are separate, but thatβs a fairly recent division of western culture. Both astronomy and astrology involve computational observations of the sky (i.e. cosmic math β the word geometry means Earth measurement). It was all one discipline for the ancients and into 1600βs Europe (oh, you know, until around the height of the witch burnings π€). For intersecting reasons rooted in the delusion of separation (from which all terrible things stem), astronomy emerged as a verified science. Astrology remained the realm of witches and weirdos. Weirdos and witches are my people. Obviously! Yet, Iβve written to you (plenty of times) about my own fortress level rational defenses β the conditioning to not show myself to be a weirdo or witch (oh, you know, perhaps connected to the fear of being burned alive π€).
My rational defenses feel deep. Even though they are completely fake, I often use scientific justifications to assuage them (see above). However, I actually have absolutely no issue believing in the inherent ensoulment and enchantment of the world. I know magic is real. I just have a hard time trusting that I myself am all that magical. Also, I am scared to talk about any of this outside of whispers within my chosen coven (i.e. you). My rational defenses are stationed in the territories of self-doubt and self-censorship.
I have magic imposter syndrome. I underestimate my own capacities in relation to the numinous. I always think other (special) people have access to enchantment and thatβs why theyβre out there boldly being all magical and shit. First of all, this thinking diminishes the hard work they may have done to be out and proud. It also turns sacredness into a limited, elitist project rather than recognizing it as the inherent truth of all reality.
Iβve made huge progress with my self-doubts by simply practicing prayerful, magical things every single day β all towards cultivating soulful, sacred space. Especially before I meditate, teach or write, I may do any or all of the following: honor the elements, make offerings, acknowledge land, light candles, smudge herbs, pour libations, invoke ancestors, talk to the planets, write intentions, voice gratitudes, speak blessings. I engage each of these as actual agents of change.
My other rational defenses center concerns around what the larger world will think β conditioning which is pretty standard for anyone educated through modernity. I, like almost all of us, spent decades in spaces (even spiritual spaces) that exalt the extremely rational and denigrate intuition and imagination. Magic canβt work because it canβt be measured. Again, the programming feels deep, and it is false. I practice shifting this too β by teaching and writing with the moon.
Invite the truth of the inherent ensoulment and enchantment of the world into every aspect of your life is an instruction I gave in my Ancestors to Elements class last fall. I forgot I said this until someone reminded me this week. If youβve been in class with me in the past year, you know I have no problem proclaiming witchy, weirdo truths and instructions when I teach online. Something about writing it here freaks me out a little. Maybe itβs the large numbers of readers or posting it to a platform that seems constructed upon rational defenses.
Still, Iβm a little embarrassed to admit all this to you. Not my witchy habits. I have no doubts that witches and weirdos are totally right. Iβm embarrassed that I am certain about the numinous and live my life accordingly but somehow still have a hard time typing that out. Embarrassed because I understand how imperative it is for us to wholeheartedly (re)engage with the sacred, and feel like Iβm not living up to the task. Maybe you can identify. Maybe you too know the truth of the inherent ensoulment and enchantment of the world, but sometimes have a hard time letting yourself feel and say so. Maybe you would like to join me and burn down the fortress walls (or compost, dissolve, diffuse or alchemize them β depending on your element of choice).
Iβm working on a new website and the other day I wrote this for it: this mess requires our spiritual maturity. Me. Iβm the mess. I require spiritual maturity. I aspire to make sacred space. Starting here.
May we each discover our own way into the truth of the inherent ensoulment and enchantment of the world.
With love
Sebene
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Thank you! I love this permission to be a messy witchy weirdo. Write on!
oh... my... goodness. i felt this one soo deeply! i definitely identify... let's... i guess I'd gravitate to (but/and hey, i'm open!!).... alchemize and/or compost the walls!! tear 'em down, let's go!! (i love the idea of doing this together, in community, because even though I've been in touch with spirit since i was little, and see many signs of my connection to it often, i too sometimes feel magical imposter syndrome, and would love some company π)... it's also because, though i escaped relatively unscathed decades ago, i was raised in a very conservative religion, what i consider, a cult really which told me my spirit connection was either in my mind, or evil, never anything good - and that lingers in my subconscious here and there i know - working to clear any final layers from that... to cut any little threads i find here and there that remain from that cord... and, pretty sure i was persecuted for spirit connection in at least one other lifetime.
these arrive at the exact moon phase time...ummm...π€... that's so fabulous!! π
keep being witchy and weird Sebene... love it!!